Another Day!

I couldn't write yesterday; I absolutely could not write one word. Every time I sat down at the computer, the only thoughts that entered my mind were miserable and dreary. I couldn't grab at any thoughts other than those that were totally depressing to me and would be, I was sure, depressing for anyone reading my blog. So I opted for a day off rather than share my "blue funk". Today, however, is another day and my head is in a new place. I've decided to go against reasonable thinking and focus, not on the big picture, but on my own small little snapshot. My world is a good world. The place where I live in my heart and my head, is a good place. So it is there that I will dwell, at least until CNN has a Breaking News alert.

Nina has decided that driving is no longer good for her mental health! Can you believe it? All of the moaning and whining, lack of sleep, and nail biting that we endured for months on end have left us here - with no desire to even sit behind the wheel. And I, being the ever involved mother, have a strong desire to spit nickels while spinning like an out of control top. "How can this be?", I ask over and over again. How can a child, who two weeks ago only wanted to drive, now not want to at all? And, as many times as the question was posed to her, the answer was only acknowledged with a shrug. So now I'm losing sleep, biting my nails, and moaning in fear that my child has been abducted by the no-driving body snatchers.

Well, this morning I got the answer - she doesn't like people driving behind her! Apparently she gets the heebie-geebies when there is a car behind her. "What did you say? Are you kidding?", was my less than sympathetic response. "Yep, I don't like to drive when people are behind me", she answered very non-chalantly. Now, I am a good mother. I have nurtured my children beyond belief. I am always there when they need me, and often when they don't. I carry their burdens to ease their loads and I am never too busy to put their needs first. But, my friends, this was a little more than I could handle. So I snapped! "I will pick you up after school today and you will drive. I don't care if there is a convoy of tractor trailers behind you, you will drive and you will LIKE IT!!! I have not suffered all of this emotional turmoil just to hear that you won't be driving anymore because you want to be the only driver on the road. Here's the big news, sister, GET OVER IT!!!" And with that, I gave her a kiss, and a big hug, and sent her off to school.

Peace Out!!